19. Discuss your first love.
My first love are my parents. Charot! My first love is a tragic story of a deep friendship lost over immaturity and societal expectations to stop talking to people from your past. Even if one has moved way beyond that romantic aspect of things. And merely holds in her soul a friendship born out of heartaches, and wrong decisions and eventually care and understanding.
20. Post about three celebrity crushes.
In the past I had a major crush on Victor Basa, ho ho ho. And that guy with washboard abs, who undoubtedly is the poster child of San Juan’s surfing scene. I followed him on IG and left a comment that I had been crushing on him, and he followed me back, which was like woaahhh wtf. Eventually he unfollowed me hahahahahahah. And, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm oh yes, I used to have a major major crush on Shia Lebouf, when he was still Even Stevens. But then he became weird. I did just watch Peanut Butter Falcon on Netflix, and I thought he was good in that movie.
21. What three lessons do you want your children to learn from you.
If given the chance to have children someday, I really wish for them to be aware of the natural world. I wish for them to live their lives in a manner where they do what they want to do but at the same time considering their surroundings. I want them to choose their actions wisely and not be easily swayed. Of course I shall also teach them the ways of the Igorot people. That they mustn’t forget their heritage and they should be proud of their roots. And trust me, I shall teach my children proper skin care from the day they learn to wash their faces by themselves.
22. Put your music on shuffle and post the first ten songs.
These songs came from my very old playlist, when I managed to secure my sister’s old iPod as my own. They come from long hours downloading torrents and converting YouTube videos to audio files. har har.
-If I ever feel better by Phoenix. Ahhhh Phoenix, one of my favourite bands ever. I watched them once in Alexandra Palace and it was amazing. I was singing and dancing like crazy.
-Reconcile by Love Me Butch. I downloaded their album because of Hollywood Holiday. And I also like We Are All You’ve Got, specially in days when I feel like an oppressed, overworked and underpaid employee, sigh.
-Stir It Up by Bob Marley & the Wailers. My vivid memories of Bob Marley songs were in high school. Watching my father getting tattooed by my cousin’s friend, while they were swinging 2×2 down their throats and Bob Marley singing on the background.
-Wish you were by Radiohead. This is a cover of Pink Floyd’s song, which I read is a song about Sid Barrett. What a tragic tragic story.
-I dance Alone by Toe. One of my dreams is to watch Toe live someday. Hopefully in Japan.
-Stellar by Incubus. When I got my sister’s iPod, she had all these Incubus songs in it. Literally all the songs and albums. Although I wasn’t as obsessed with Incubus as she was, I kept the songs and from time to time relished on Brandon Boyd’s singing. What is up with all these Brandons in music eh?
-Kisapmata by Rivermaya. One of those OPM classics you randomly sing to while walking or whichever activity you’re doing.
-The Voiceless by And So I Watch You From A Far. Ahhhhhhhhhhh shoe gaze music.
-To Be Young by Ryan Adams. I found Ryan Adams because of NME’s top albums list.
-Baby by Warpaint. Sometimes I have this girl power moment when I only listen to female singers. From Company of Thieves to Now Now, BP Valenzuela, Alabama Shakes, Gillian Welch, and Warpaint.
23. A letter to someone, anyone.
Dear Self, be cool but don’t freeze. Hang in there. The blues shall pass.
24. Write about a lesson you’ve learned the hard way.
Hmmmmmmmm. I guess having this intense desire in the past to leave my hometown and relocate somewhere acceptable in my terms. Thinking that life abroad would be great with all the travel opportunities and concerts and museums and culture I can immerse myself into. Realising soon after how life away from home can be really difficult and lonely. Sometimes we long for something new and exotic. We always champion the idea of stepping out of one’s comfort zone. But really in the long run, the heart will end up wanting what it always had. In my case, my hometown and my family.
25. Think of any word. Search it on google images. Write something inspired by the 11th image.
So I wrote Baguio, and the 11th image is a picture of the City at night. Pardon my dramatics but I just really miss home, and with how things are playing out right now, it’s making me miss home more.
26. Write about an area of your life that you’d like to improve
My social skills. lol.
27. Conversely, write about something that’s kicking ass right now.
So I’m really proud of sticking to my minimalism goals. I didn’t even buy anything on Black Friday.
28. Post five things that make you laugh out loud.
-That Modern Family episode where Lily is introduced to the family.
-Old Bretman Rock videos.
-Jimmy Kimmel’s I ate all your Halloween candy.
-Just recently those Donald Trump SNL skits.
-My niece!!!!! Her name is Cayenne Aiko.
29. What are your goals for the next 30 days.
To not breakdown and just continue sweating it out on down times. Until I can board a flight home and hopefully celebrate Christmas surrounded by people I hold close to my heart. At this point, I have only ever been day dreaming of walking the streets of my hometown, cold breeze sweeping my face, sun shining brightly, skies mighty blue (cue in UDD music), meeting friends for cold beer or hot coffee, grocery shopping for holiday menus. I cannot wait to be home.
30. Your highs and lows for the month.
So far my lowest was waking up on a work day and receiving an email saying my flight got cancelled. And my highest was the day after when I rang customer service and managed to rebook my flight. I just really want to go home.